The Day After Surgery....

Well it has been a crazy 24 hrs... Yesterday my dream became a reality. My surgery was a success, everything went great. We arrived at the hospital at 0520 and registered. I was having killer anxiety because there wasn't anyone there and all of a sudden it filled up. And i don't do well in small places with so many people. But it was a quick process, I just don't like the waiting game. We went in and i changed and was getting prepped for surgery. And then time came for the nurse to come for me. We walked back to the OR and i was so ready. The staff couldn't believe it. We were laughing and cracking jokes and then it was mimis time for me. Everyone says you dream, or go places while under but i didn't. the next think i remember was waking up in recovery and it was super hot, i was sweating. I could feel it. The oxygen mask was tight and i remember pulling it off and being in a lot of pain, to the point i was almost crying. I must have been in and out and i remember seeing my mom. The next thing i remember was waking up in my room and seeing the Bestie Eileen and my mom. The next few hours were super tough. I was on a Morphine drip and i was having episodes of pain that would wake me up. Finally the nurse brought me some toradol and my oh my i felt so much better. The next few hours passed by fast i was in and out of sleep. Had some visitors and just hung out here. I walked a few times and felt good. Mom spent the night with me, and of course i hardly slept between all the visits from the nurses and being a bit uncomfortable.
This morning i went for an upper gi scan to make sure i didn't have any leakage. That was gross lol, i had to drink some contrast that made me want to vomit. after that the nurse came and said i can start a liquid diet and i could finally shower yay =) so the first thing i did was shower and it felt great. then i went to walk around and came back and had a lil bit of apple juice and chicken broth. Mom left to get some wok done and my bestie Eileen came by and then Andrea. I have felt so good today. Hardly any pain and i have been very active. Doc came by and said that i am dong great and can probably go home tomorrow =) i cant wait!!! Now the journey begins....I can do anything =) I have a wonderful support system and don't know if i could do this without them...

Last night as a Fat Kid!!

What can I say it's the night before my WLS (weight loss surgery)....I am not sure exactly how I feel right now. I think every possible emotion is running through my mind. I am so ready for it but at the same time tomorrow is the first day of the rest of my life. My life will never be the same after my Gastric Bypass surgery. I have been waiting for a long long time. I began this process back in August of 2010, Thinking that it would be a quick process, but boy was I wrong. If it wasn't one thing it was another, and after finally seeing specialists, tests after test and changing doctors, my dream will become a reality tomorrow morning at 0730. It's going to be a long and tough journey. My weight is something that i have always struggled with since i was a little girl. Crash dieting, fad diets, doctors, nutritionists, pills, shots, etc i have tried it all. I even went to "Fat Camp" at age 20. I did great there I went to Wellspring Summer Camp for girls in NY in 2008 for 8 weeks, after y success there i continued on to there college program in California. I lost 80lbs in the Wellspring program, it was great, i felt great. But coming home was a different story. Following the lifestyle was hard, not to mention expensive. Slowly i started gaining it back, until i had a severe car accident in May of 2009. I was involved in a single car rollover and fractured to vertebra's and tore ligaments in my hand. That's when i really started to gain the weight back. It's been such a struggle. I consider myself to be a strong willed, confident individual, but sometimes its just a front. Inside my weight has always weighed heavily on me and takes a toll on me. It has stopped me from doing things, and being embarrassed and made fun of. Most of the time I blow it off but deep down it hurts and I am mortified. I love amusement parks and traveling but my weight has definitely stopped me from doing the things I love. It has affected my relationships with family and loved ones. I am looking forward to experiencing life in a new body and going through the journey that as been a long time coming, I deserve this and I will prove everyone who ever said i couldn't wrong.