Last night as a Fat Kid!!

What can I say it's the night before my WLS (weight loss surgery)....I am not sure exactly how I feel right now. I think every possible emotion is running through my mind. I am so ready for it but at the same time tomorrow is the first day of the rest of my life. My life will never be the same after my Gastric Bypass surgery. I have been waiting for a long long time. I began this process back in August of 2010, Thinking that it would be a quick process, but boy was I wrong. If it wasn't one thing it was another, and after finally seeing specialists, tests after test and changing doctors, my dream will become a reality tomorrow morning at 0730. It's going to be a long and tough journey. My weight is something that i have always struggled with since i was a little girl. Crash dieting, fad diets, doctors, nutritionists, pills, shots, etc i have tried it all. I even went to "Fat Camp" at age 20. I did great there I went to Wellspring Summer Camp for girls in NY in 2008 for 8 weeks, after y success there i continued on to there college program in California. I lost 80lbs in the Wellspring program, it was great, i felt great. But coming home was a different story. Following the lifestyle was hard, not to mention expensive. Slowly i started gaining it back, until i had a severe car accident in May of 2009. I was involved in a single car rollover and fractured to vertebra's and tore ligaments in my hand. That's when i really started to gain the weight back. It's been such a struggle. I consider myself to be a strong willed, confident individual, but sometimes its just a front. Inside my weight has always weighed heavily on me and takes a toll on me. It has stopped me from doing things, and being embarrassed and made fun of. Most of the time I blow it off but deep down it hurts and I am mortified. I love amusement parks and traveling but my weight has definitely stopped me from doing the things I love. It has affected my relationships with family and loved ones. I am looking forward to experiencing life in a new body and going through the journey that as been a long time coming, I deserve this and I will prove everyone who ever said i couldn't wrong.